yesterday was not so good. i went to the hospital to have my therapy but i was told that there will be no therapy on that day. haay.. sayang punta ko. oh well.. atleast i was able to go out. haha!!

before we went to the hospital my dad asked me if i wanted to see the graveyard of fernando poe. thinking that it was a joke i said, "oo bah!! cge cge!!" the next thing i knew is that we're turning right to the cemtery when we're suppose to turn left for the parking space. you see the cemetery is located right beside chinese general (my hospital). if you'd go there both places are on the right. its just that the cemetery goes first. yeah! yeah!! i went there. if you think that i'm an avid fan.. well.. you're wrong... i'm just one of the chismosas out there.. nyahaha!! i didn't expect that he was buried in that place. the graveyard doesn't suit him. i'm pretty sure you don't want me to describe the place... haayy.. iba tlga...    

on our way home my mom called. we learned that my lolo is about to die. recently he was confined for having a mild stroke but he's recovering already. on christmas day, he was brought to the hospital again because he was dehydrated. when the doctors tested his blood it was found out that his lungs were infected together with some other parts of his body. the half-sister of my dad talked to the doctor and they were told that my lolo will die soon.

i didn't sleep well today. the news kept bugging me. i slept light. this morning, i was awakened by my dad's voice. he was talking to somebody when he said, "oo, wla na"... my lolo died this morning. it's really sad cz a year is about to begin. new year will not be like the other years. its hard for us to start (especially for my sister whose been really close to him and for my dad as well). nalulungkot ako cz i didn't even see him for the last time. my parents went there. dapat kasama ako but they didn't allow me kc di ko daw kaya. (i have poor body-resistance daw) my lolo and i were not that close. sometimes we fight. knowing me... sobrang maltida so often i answer back.  the regular voice of my lolo is loud. it may seem that he's shouting but he's not. i'd ask him so keep his voice on a low tone when i'm starting to be irritated. but since he had stroke, i started to miss him and his huge voice. he can't speak anymore since that time. now i'm regretting that i didn't get the chance to be close to him. i know he's a great man. though he's already old, he still helps with the chores at home. sometimes he stays with us. right now, i'm still shocked cz the last time i saw him, he was strong physically (no ailments or anything). il miss a lot from him. the room where he stays is now empty and lonely. my lolo will be forever gone. il miss him so much. il visit him later. i just wish that he'll forgive me for the times when i argue with him.

i told nikka about my lolo. she expressed her condolences and i'm thankful for that. salamat tlga bestfriend!! i thought that would end there pero ndi. she texted back and said, "san ung wake? my family will be there" touched ako kc their family will be one with us. i never expected that they'll do that. sobrang bait. salamat nikka, tita beng, tito roger, and kuya..

**mourning**

mornin!! m up early today cz il be going to the hospital. il have my therapy again. i stopped having my therapy 2 months ago due to hectic schedule in school. recently i've been having back aches again and so i decided to visit my therapist once more. (ngaun lang ulit kung kelan maakit ung likod ko!!) my therapist gave me some exercises so that i could do them at home. supposedly i should do them daily pro nkktmad. sometimes i do them sometimes i don't. haha!! i exercise whenever i can't take the pain no more.. like what i did early this morning. it hurts like hell...but at least nabawasan na.. and one more thing.. kya ko naicp mgdoctor is because il be having my scoliosis series again on january. its a series of x-rays after that the doctor will see it again and recommend me to have a therapy. you see it's a cycle that will forever be there. (i ges?!)

my dad scolded me when he saw my room today. he told me that it was messy when for me its not. hayy.. what a way to start the day. i answered him back cz he shouted at me. just to end it up, i fixed my room A LITTLE by placing my shoes where it should be. haha!!  mautak!! i'm not in the mood to listen to those stuff. he ruined my morning so why should i clean my room???

haay.. lately my body clock is ruined. ive been sleeping late and i get up early. my body wants to sleep but my mind tells me get off my bed. haay.. and when i'm awake already i start to get bored cz i don't have anything to do.

need to go

**dad calls me**

++PISSED++

ive been writing my entry for the nth time but something comes up and it ends up with me not being able to post it!! damn it!!! oh well... m bored!! todo bored!! uhm.. i just finished eating breakfast. m still thinking whether il have my parish involvement today or not. mejo tinatamad nga ko. haay... i don't know with my friend. she's still sleeping when i called her to confirm if we'll go to church or not. uhm.. i won't be hearing mass today. it's sunday pa nman. tinatamad ako umalis pero bum naman ako dito sa bahay. well.. belated merry christmas!! yeah.. yeah.. christmas had just passed and ges what? i didn't feel it. ruigi told me that i'm getting old kaya ganon. haay buhay.. uhm... one week na kong 17 today. at ung mga tao.. wla pang gift sken!! haha!! stig tlga last week cz my boyfriend together with our friends surprised me. i was shocked cz that time i was wearing my freshmen batchshirt and shorts. it was fun cz once again we had inuman. un pla ung feeling ng cnurprise haha!! well... next year debut nman. hayy.. i better end this bka d ko nnmn mpost e... til next time.